two best friends, one love story.

The past week and a half have been harsh. I know that all of it is coming from me, but I know dealing with me when I’m like this is far from easy on you. I know you’re not clueless. The past few skype sessions have almost all ended with me nearly in tears.

I’m stressed out, I’m exhausted, and most of all, I miss you. In fact I don’t think I’ve ever missed you in the past ten months as much as I miss you now. What I find ironic is that we’re only a month away from seeing each other. Yet this month feels longer than the past ten months combined. I’m frustrated and you know that. And we both know how impatient we are. I just can’t find it in myself to keep asking you to bring yourself down just because I’m having a hard time. I feel selfish.

I guess this is more of my rambling than a post with an actual point but baby, thanks. I’ve been kind of a mess lately and you’ve only been even more kind and caring with me. I know you’re going to tell me not to thank you but I’m gonna repeat it a million times. You don’t realize how much all these “little” things you do mean to me. You may call them little things, but they’re the things that mean the most to me.

So thank you for listening. Thank you for caring. Thank you for putting a smile on my face even when I feel like I’m having the worst day ever.

I love you more than words can explain.
See you in 34 days love.